You Have To Work On Your Repentance, Everyday .

You’ve sinned.

You’ve sinned so much. So much that it seems like there is no ray of hope of forgiveness anymore.

O withered soul, what caused you to do such?
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Everyone has their own downfall, everyone has their own flaws and of course everyone has their own selfish desires and this is what makes us humans.

No one is perfect nor will even be delivered to this dunya and arrive in the akhirah without a stain of sins….soaked in rivers of repentance.

You have done wrong, and you have to admit that to yourself, the shaitan will keep luring you on reasoning out and justifying your actions, do not let him.

You know your real actions and desires while other people around you might be just blindly accepting and trusting you but know that the One who Hears and Sees everything, knows every bit of it.

Indeed, we all have a heart that desires but we also have to realize that with that desires are corners of temptations that will keep us thinking that what we are doing will be understood later on or that what we are doing will be accepted by someone who we think loves us or understands us.

I am telling you, it’s not that way.

When things are made to be evident by Allah Azza Wa Jall, that your actions will be justified by Allah Azza Wa Jall infront of those whom you’ve done wrong, the pain won’t struck you… it will strike the very core of the hearts of those who blindly trusted you... and for you, nothing but shame will be the there.

Now things are cluttering up on your mind, and you want to go back to where all it started. So let me cut the crap for you and save you from a long painful journey of memories.  You lacked the fear of Allah, the consciousness of Allah, the intention of pleasing Allah.
I am not telling you, you don’t have any “taqwa” anymore, but what I am telling you is that you opened doors for others to the place where it should have been [should always be] only for Allah Azza Wa Jall.

You might have loved someone more, you might have wanted something more, you might have desired for someone or something more, not other than Allah Azza Wa Jall but other than pleasing Allah Azza Wa Jall. Now there’s the difference, and that’s where shaitan will always lure you.

So, you’ve fallen, you’ve failed, you’ve been defeated, you’ve been… you can call it with every negative word you want it but I am telling you, YOU HAVEN’T.

If you think, you have failed or defeated on it, then what made you read this entry up to this point? Why do you feel so bad about what you have done? You know why, it’s because you fear Allah, you love Allah and there is that hint of light that glows within your heart that you want to better things up, that you want to renew what has been withered and that you want to be closer to Him than ever before.

And do you know who put this light on your heart? It is Allah. Subhan'Allah.

He calls you back to Him. Subhan'Allah.

He puts this light on your path back to Him. Subhan'Allah.

The only reason why there are tears falling down your eyes right now, is because He comforts you that with every tear falling, he gives you a feeling of relief in your heart and that after this, He puts this ray of hope in your heart that He will forgive you, as long as you repent, sincerely.

He is At Tawaab. The One who accepts the tawbah [repentance] of the one who makes tawbah. Allahu'akbar.

YOU HAVE NOT FAILED. You are still there, you might have been injured, but Allah heals you, He always does, so right now, what you can do is to actually “Repent” and come back to Him. 

How many times have we encountered that hadith qudsi where Allah Azza Wa Jall says that when His servant comes to Him walking He comes running. Subhan'Allah.

My dear brother and sister in Islam, we all make mistakes, but what matters is how we accept it and how we make repentance over it.

Indeed, we read a lot of stories about great people who were once sinners but look at how Allah Azza Wa Jall raised their statuses after they have given their lives in full service and worship to Allah?

‘Umar Ibn Al Khattab Radiyallahu Anhu wanted to kill the Prophet Sallallahu Alaihi Wassalaam, was a alcohol drinker but look at that light that Allah Azza Wa Jall gave him that he became one of the greatest Caliph of Islam and became one of those ten promised of Jannah. Wallahi, it’s the same light Allah is giving you right now. 

Do not lose hope, help yourself, pray the next salah after you have read this, and talk to Allah Azza Wa Jall, repent and ask for His Forgiveness.

For when He forgives the One who Repents, He makes those who Love Him, forgive that person as well and creates that love in the hearts of those who Love Him to love that person who repented as well.

The solution to your problem, your grief, your regret and all that bad things that are happening in your life right now is none other than Allah. The relationship between you and Allah. 

So let not a day pass by without you sincerely uttering, Astagfirullah.

Remember, Allah will never give up on you, so don’t give up on Him as well.
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And we pray that Allah Azza Wa Jall continues to guide every Muslim who have done wrong here and there back to Him. 

Ameen.